postpone

who would want someone like that?....

fascination. mental frustration and blurry lines.
the one moment you feel a flicker of happiness..

i think the world today is a funny thing. and when you find you the one place of acceptance to be a bright, square box.
the place that ignites the imagination. the dream. and it opens the ideas.
but one thing it lacks: my physical escape.

today i thought about the ignition of a phrase, or as some would consider a phase.
what people fail to realize is it is not a phase. and as you look back into the years, the signals, the reality is there. every clue unraveled and every answer ripe for the picking.

i do not remember many memories from the early years, but i do remember some.
ones painful, and as in now in my life, memories i refrain from revealing. perhaps such things i will take to my grave....

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perhaps another time and another place.
the walls have ears.
the internet has eyes.
and my mind has a guilt complex.
how sad to think i cannot even trust a computer screen..