commitment:

I take a look at the things that have occurred through out my time here, events and deals that have taken a toll on my life, my character, and my soul. To adapt to ones surroundings is what we do, what we were born to do. there is nothing wrong with adapting, trying to fit in to our natural habitat. BUt what if I was not born to fit in with the crowd, to be like everyone else. There is always one who was born to be different, we all were in fact. But it takes one to stand above the rest to set the path for change. It is through one persons act of confidence that leads a trend, that sets the path, that creates the movement and pursues the dream. It is a hard concept to grasp, harder to comprehend. For it is hard to put forth your foot, to take that first step into a place as cloudy, dark and musty as a street with no light. Complete darkness. But you know there is no other way to reach your safety zone without walking down this street. You know the way, but you cannot see the obstacles, the uncertainty that hides in the shadows, that is waiting for you to trip over, to grab you, to keep you from your relief and security. Of course, you will try to find another way home but you know there is only one real way. You can stall yourself as long as you want, but the wait is not getting any easier. I can feel the need to make it home. I know I am not meant to be like everyone else. I know I am a leader. To be a leader is sometimes meant to stand alone. But just because you stand alone does not mean you are lonely. For you are never alone. The leap, or in this case step of faith, of hope, of clarity, is the hardest part. But the first attempt will not be shot down. Make the commitment and the resistance will be lessened and your yearning for closure and relief will set in. Make for yourself the safe haven and feel at ease. Be at peace.