Revelation:

Why is it when know something will hurt us, we embrace it with open arms into our lives instead of running as fast as we can without looking back?

Perhaps it is easier to accept the heart ache than to run. 

Perhaps it is punishment to ourselves

We do it so we can feel hurt and pain and negativity because that is where we feel loved and accepted. We create that environment for ourselves, by the way we hope and want to be loved. 

This shows we as people really care about ourselves, we do love ourself only in a way we subconsciously hide from our self.

The love we have for ourself is too focused on the negative aspects of our lives, emotions, situations, and wrong doings that when we do something right, feel something right or want to do right it means nothing. 

Love is a seperate being, fed entirely on different aspects of our lives. It feels greater, it knows everything and blinds easily. It has no limits even though it is hard to see around it. It cares. It takes the beating. It dries the tears. It bleeds the life from our wounds yet takes the beating from the bad.

The pain, the hurt, the misery, the heart ache we create for ourselves is loved by no other than ourself. We love ourselves so much we create love and formulate it into people in our lives and imagine them caring for us, if they knew the pain we were and are feeling. We both hate on our selves and love our selves at the same time. We create the situation in every possible way. A whole world inside our own mind. Feeling every emotion, the closest way to have a pure and enlightened out of body experience. 

For without Love there can be no life. Love is Life as Life is Love. All through-out life we are taught, we teach ourselves, we experience, we grow, we explore, we learn how to love. 

Love is the essence of our being. The path of our Lives. We are searching for love. We are finding Love. We are blinded by Love. We are tricked by Love. We are Resurrected: We are Forgiven: We are Punished: and We are Saved by Love.

But see how scary it is to love, be afraid of love. It takes you places you have never traveled, feel things you thought were a story. And when you feel it is the only way, it tricks you into believing it was love where really it was a mirage, a circle path. It took you now where, and it lead you false. A friend you thought you had, but an enemy more the less. But out of the ashes, your love finds you and lifts you from the piles. It builds you up, restores your glow. Your path is clear in view and your shine as pure as snow.

Your only handle to the reality you live. Your love backs you up as you struggle to regain your stand. But to always know that even when love tears you up and strikes you down, it will always catch you before you hit the ground. This Love you grow to know and find will fight the fight, whether good or bad. But will never let you face this world alone. 

Your Prosecutor. Your Judge and Jury. Your Defender. Love Always.